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Hide And Seek: A Deconstruction
Sat in the library at Carleton this afternoon and decided to have a closer listen to a song that May and Dan put me on to during their last visit. It’s by Imogen Heap and it’s called Hide and Seek.
So I listened to it a few times and then decided to put it on single-song repeat for a while to kind of figure it out. I listened to it for quite a while in the background as I reviewed data and made graphs. I checked the iTunes play count and it was 23 by the time I turned it off (93 minutes or so). So you could say that I extensively checked it out I guess.
Needless to say it is a very compelling track. Not exactly ‘cross-format focused for airplay success’ but something along the lines of what Negativland had in mind when they described a song that had been designed. I don’t know if Imogen Heap did design it, but that’s the effect I get. And I must say that I am not using ‘design’ in a pejorative sense at all. It’s a small miracle of craftsmanship.
The song itself is just over four minutes. And it’s almost impossible to pin down something that it is like. Not because it is totally unlike anything you’ve heard before, but because it is self-contradictory in so many ways. That, I believe, is one reason it is so fascinating.
The song is solo voice accompanied by rich vocorder harmonies. This makes it immediately reminiscent of Laurie Anderson’s Home of the Brave. After this point, though, we have to start into the contradictions if we want to discuss this song any more.
This is a real christmas tree kind of track. It is jammed full of tweaky effects, and is wildly inconsistent. One minute we have large concert hall reverb, the next the room is dead. There is exactly one industrial hammer sound in the 4 minutes. One minute we have bright (almost painful) treble-rich pop EQ, the next we have mid overload: muddy distorted vocorder. This inconsistency should make it really bad. It makes it really good.
The metre of the song is also contradictory. On a casual listen it seems to be what hymnodists would call ‘Particular Meter’. Meaning basically that the metre of the tune is custom-matched to the metre of the words; in other words it wouldn’t fit into the traditional scheme of having a book of tunes and a book of words and picking an appropriate pair. It also seems like it’s kind of ‘not in time’, very flowing, very expressive, and — while very rhythmic — totally irregular. That is how it sounds on a casual listen.
Now I have this thing that May and Dan will attest to that I hear songs in different metres than normal other people do. I thought perhaps it was just me when I began to hear the piece in 4… But I patiently counted out the whole track. It turns out that the casual listen I talked about in the last paragraph is wrong. The song of contraditions. The irregular metre is not the truth as the song is actually an extremely consistent 4/4 (roughly 120 bpm) from first beat to the rit at the end. It is heavily misbarred, which is another common quality of old american hymns. Misbarred songs have the metrical emphasis on the wrong beats. They are misleading because it sounds like you’re jamming a beat here and and stealing a beat there, but when you look at it closely they’re plain old 4/4 or whatever. Imogen’s singing is expressive for sure, and she pulls a couple of beats around, but that’s style. As Shelley once said, there’s writing and then there’s singing.
The thing is that even when you know it’s in 4, the song (particularly around the Hide and Seek part) just wants to be heard as expressive, free of metre, almost like the rhythmic but metreless cadenza in opera. Despite this and the relaxed performance, all the rests are counted. The production of the multiple vocorder tracks probably necessitated this.
Harmonically the track is sticking to its contradictory guns. We go from 2 voice wide open unschooled harmony to (I didn’t count) 4-5 voice crunchy close packed stuff that even gets jazzy. What kind of song is this anyway? No answers from the harmonic world… I almost want to write this song down to try to figure it out. (Unlikely to have time anytime soon though in case you were thinking of asking.)
Despite its massive harmonic structure for a pop song, it is begging for at least two more parts. I hear a deep bass (perhaps doubling some of her low notes), and there is definitely a descant super-high part in there. Actually she gives us 4 notes of the high part at one point, but I hear a lot more of it.
The thing is, if I put in all the things that I’m hearing in this track it would become a lumbering overstuffed mess. It seems to be precisely the things that are misssing that enable it to survive. The reason I said the song seemed ‘designed’ is that I find myself cued to “imagine in” these missing parts, and I think that’s another reason that it is so compelling.
In keeping with my “I never listen to the words” behaviours I haven’t commented on the poem, but it is clearly as varied as the tune. Each part of this song is over so fast — you kind of want it to keep going the way it was going for a few more verses. It’s almost as if there’s a whole album of music compressed into this one track if only you let your brain expand the verses of each section out… pretend you’re listening to five smoothly interconnected 30-second samples of songs and that’s kind of what this song does without sounding like it isn’t one song. So weird. So compelling.
The song can be had from the Interweb’s usual warez spots and the iTMS. But I think I’m going to buy this person’s album, just to see if this track was some kind of divine intervention or whether there’s more than four minutes of this kind of coolness.
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my own thoughts
okay im pretty excited about this song. and i know no one is going to read this because this whole deal is so outdated. but i wanted to write this down because. well we all know that it helps to write things down. anyways, yay for the long intro. sorry. i take a long time telling stories. its terrible. i was thinking about the lyrics, which obviously hold some very deep meaning. i was impressed by the whole idea of moving out, as in the crop circles in the carpet. but i was also impressed by the thought of war, implied by falling dust, and the complete "insensitivity" of society in general, which i will not comment on. so these two ideas. while they seem in a way contradictory or at least exclusively disjunctive, i think it is very possible that they coexist within the songs poem. if you think about it, a breakup-and-move-out situation parallels closely the tragedy of war. and in the song, things go from very personal "pleasure moments" to a universal time of mourning: "streets a mess with people would stop to hold their heads heavy". this becomes apparent if you take this line in enjambment with the preceding one. as for "trains and sewing machines", is this not both mainstream and personal? trains thread the globe, no pun intended. sewing machines are pretty much exclusively found in the home. they are also both very loud. people who are afflicted with "insensitivity" naturally dont "care a bit". this can be said for your stupid ex or for society as a whole. its just the way it is. thats on a more minor note. for my grand finale i just want to mention again the falling dust, which connotes the feeling of war, as in bombs and debris. it is mostly used figuratively, though, as in an argument or angry dispute. dust settling. again, this ties together the personal and the universal. anyways. "hide and seek" really makes me cry. its just so beautiful. and im not going to comment on that aspect of it, the sound i mean, and the emotion of it, because i wont be able to finish. but what i want to suggest is just listen to the lyrics of the song, and read along if you dont already know them by heart, no pun intended, while keeping in mind war and breakup. were all looking though, all searching, for a truth, something that defines our humanity completely, and gives purpose. and we have to admit, we are fatally insensitive. before the train, before the sewing machine, there was blood and tears. can we find our own nature in our innovations? "oh you wont catch me around here". maybe we need to go back to where we were before. maybe we need to experience raw humanity once again.
at
2006-2-27 01:17
by ryan m
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so...
Sooo.. honestly.. whose lives have been altered by this song? Who has had something happen to them that immediately brought this song to mind?
Just recently, My fiance of 5 years left me. As I was just getting over it, I heard this song.
Ive never cried like this before..
ever..
The crop circles in the carpet.. furniture, no longer there...
Oily marks on walls, left around paintings or art that was once around the house..
Busy streets Ammassed with people who stop to hold their heads heavy... people feeling your pain.. knowing what you've been through..
Since my fiance left me, I've attempted suicide twice. Ive failed, obviously, both times.
I now have her name carved on to my arm..
Im not messed up.. Theres nothing wrong with me..
Hearing this song after all of this has helped me to find myself, and realise that if I put down everything that has happened, and just leave it, life CAN go on again..
Maybe it will..
anyway, Imogen, Miss Heap, whatever you would like us, your beloved fans to call you, I'd like to thank you from the very bottom of my soul for giving me an outlet for all of my pain..
I, for one, when I have the money together will be coming to see you perform live.
you're amazing.
Jaybeat2k5@hotmail.co.uk - www.soundclick.com/j-beat2k5
If you want to hear my outlet/comeback to my fiance leaving me, look for " I Tried my Best" on the music section of my site..
Theres a remix of Hide and Seek in the pipeline, if you're all interested. it wont be fantastic, but I feel as though I have to do something to make myself part of the song.. you know?
anyway.. Thank you Imogen, and thanks to all of you here on this forum for being so honest and for helping me to understand what this song was truly about. Anything you wish for it to be about.
at
2006-5-24 20:14
by Jaybeat2k5
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Meaning
Here is my take on the song's meaning.
Where are we? What the hell is going on? The dust has only just begun to fall Crop circles in the carpet Sinking feeling..... ......The song begins just after the boyfriend/husband has dumped the girl/wife (Imogen?). She didn't see it coming and is in complete shock. He's made up his mind - this is over. She feels blind-sided and it is all happening so quickly.
Spin me round again and rub my eyes this can't be happening when busy streets a mess with people would stop to hold their heads heavy.... ....She's thinking, "What?! Rewind. Do over. Replay. Let me turn around and let's start over. Someone please wake me up from this nightmare. I'm confused; this just can NOT be happening. WHAT?!?!?" Again, she did not see it coming. She obviously does not want the relationship to end.
Hide and seek Trains and sewing machines All those years They were here first.... ....I'll explain "hide and seek" in a bit. It's meaning is offered later in the song. Speaking in general terms, trains tend to be a possession that would likely belong to males (perhaps a hobby of the boyfriend/husband, or the trains could belong to the couple's sons(s)) and sewing machines are thought to be possessions that would typically belong to females (the wife's or daughter's). These were items they purchased together back in the early days of their relationship. The items point towards the fun memories of the early days but they are also an indication of the perceived committment to this being a long-term, perhaps even a life-long, relationship. All those fun, memory-filled years with all of their promises (explicit and insinuated -through the joint purchases) were here first. Remember how good we were?! Again, she really did not see this relationship ever ending...and she's felt that way for a long time.
oily marks appear on walls where pleasure moments hung before the takeover the sweeping insensitivity of this still life.... ....I think this has been well covered by lots in previous blogs. She's just mentioning more reminders (crop circles = moved furniture) of their lives together. Pictures of them (and their children; and perhaps their children's artwork) WERE once on the walls, but they are now being removed in this move. Again, she didn't see any of this coming, so the move and everything about it seems hostile...almost like their home is being violated.
At this point, her head isn't spinning as much as the shock is wearing off. She has begun to gather her thoughts and begins putting things together. She has this entire conversation with herself outloud. She's fills in for him, because he's packing and trying to leave as quickly as possible. He said everything he meant to say in his breakup speach. Her speech is filled with anger and sarcasm.
HER: mm what d'ya say? HIM (she's filling in for him): that you only meant well HER (dripping with sarcasm): well of course you did
HER: mm what d'ya say? HIM (she's filling in for him): this it's all for the best HER (dripping with sarcasm): of course it is
HER: mm what d'ya say? HIM (she's filling in for him): that it's just what we need HER (dripping with sarcasm): you decided this?
HER: what did you say? HER (coming to full realization of what has happened): what did SHE say?.... ....You lying, cheating $#@%%^&%@
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth Mid sweet talk newspaper word cut outs Speak no feeling no I don't believe you you don't care a bit you don't care a bit.... ....She's using a metaphor to suggest that he's hijacked their love. He's kidnapped and hidden his true feelings for her. She's claiming that he still loves her, but he's denying it and lying about his feelings. Everything that comes out of his mouth is a denial of his love, but she's claiming that he's just kidnapped his true feelings (ransom notes) and his talking to her in this "everything is ok" voice. He's putting on a good show, but she's not falling for it. He speaks without feeling, but she doesn't believe him.
HIDE and SEEK She claims that he has HIDDEN his true feelings for her. He's HIDDEN the truth about what's really going on and why he's leaving. She's SEEKING for him to admit to his love for her. She's also SEEKING the truth about why he's leaving.
Hide and seek is a metaphor for most break-ups. The dumper tends to HIDE the full truth about why things are over. The dumpee is usually left trying to SEEK the full, true reasons for the break-up.
at
2006-8-8 23:37
by Coolio
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Meaning
Here is my take on the song's meaning.
Where are we? What the hell is going on? The dust has only just begun to fall Crop circles in the carpet Sinking feeling..... ......The song begins just after the boyfriend/husband has dumped the girl/wife (Imogen?). She didn't see it coming and is in complete shock. He's made up his mind - this is over. She feels blind-sided and it is all happening so quickly.
Spin me round again and rub my eyes this can't be happening when busy streets a mess with people would stop to hold their heads heavy.... ....She's thinking, "What?! Rewind. Do over. Replay. Let me turn around and let's start over. Someone please wake me up from this nightmare. I'm confused; this just can NOT be happening. WHAT?!?!?" Again, she did not see it coming. She obviously does not want the relationship to end.
Hide and seek Trains and sewing machines All those years They were here first.... ....I'll explain "hide and seek" in a bit. It's meaning is offered later in the song. Speaking in general terms, trains tend to be a possession that would likely belong to males (perhaps a hobby of the boyfriend/husband, or the trains could belong to the couple's sons(s)) and sewing machines are thought to be possessions that would typically belong to females (the wife's or daughter's). These were items they purchased together back in the early days of their relationship. The items point towards the fun memories of the early days but they are also an indication of the perceived committment to this being a long-term, perhaps even a life-long, relationship. All those fun, memory-filled years with all of their promises (explicit and insinuated -through the joint purchases) were here first. Remember how good we were?! Again, she really did not see this relationship ever ending...and she's felt that way for a long time.
oily marks appear on walls where pleasure moments hung before the takeover the sweeping insensitivity of this still life.... ....I think this has been well covered by lots in previous blogs. She's just mentioning more reminders (crop circles = moved furniture) of their lives together. Pictures of them (and their children; and perhaps their children's artwork) WERE once on the walls, but they are now being removed in this move. Again, she didn't see any of this coming, so the move and everything about it seems hostile...almost like their home is being violated.
At this point, her head isn't spinning as much as the shock is wearing off. She has begun to gather her thoughts and begins putting things together. She has this entire conversation with herself outloud. She's fills in for him, because he's packing and trying to leave as quickly as possible. He said everything he meant to say in his breakup speach. Her speech is filled with anger and sarcasm.
HER: mm what d'ya say? HIM (she's filling in for him): that you only meant well HER (dripping with sarcasm): well of course you did
HER: mm what d'ya say? HIM (she's filling in for him): this it's all for the best HER (dripping with sarcasm): of course it is
HER: mm what d'ya say? HIM (she's filling in for him): that it's just what we need HER (dripping with sarcasm): you decided this?
HER: what did you say? HER (coming to full realization of what has happened): what did SHE say?.... ....You lying, cheating $#@%%^&%@
Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth Mid sweet talk newspaper word cut outs Speak no feeling no I don't believe you you don't care a bit you don't care a bit.... ....She's using a metaphor to suggest that he's hijacked their love. He's kidnapped and hidden his true feelings for her. She's claiming that he still loves her, but he's denying it and lying about his feelings. Everything that comes out of his mouth is a denial of his love, but she's claiming that he's just kidnapped his true feelings (ransom notes) and his talking to her in this "everything is ok" voice. He's putting on a good show, but she's not falling for it. He speaks without feeling, but she doesn't believe him.
HIDE and SEEK She claims that he has HIDDEN his true feelings for her. He's HIDDEN the truth about what's really going on and why he's leaving. She's SEEKING for him to admit to his love for her. She's also SEEKING the truth about why he's leaving.
Hide and seek is a metaphor for most break-ups. The dumper tends to HIDE the full truth about why things are over. The dumpee is usually left trying to SEEK the full, true reasons for the break-up.
at
2006-8-8 23:37
by Coolio
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